Bitchin-it-out

Sadly.

The only thing I really want to accomplish (as of right now) in this next year is to get over you.

just so you know,

I’m not falling for it again.

I know if I fall for you once again, you won’t catch me.

Fool me once, shame one you….fool me twice, shame on me.

dick head:

Why are you being a dick head for?
Stop being a dick head.
Why are you being a dick head for?
You’re just fucking up situations.

whats going on?

I have everyone in my life telling me he’s bad for me. why don’t I listen? no one understands our kind of humor. people think he’s such an asshole but in real life hes the biggest teddy bear you can ever imagine. he does have a dark side, always needing constant female attention might lead him astray, which scares the hell out of me. I wish I could stop the inevitable, because I know he will leave me. I don’t know when, I wont know why, I just know it will happen. I might as well enjoy it for as long as I can. I’m already in over my head. I know it. he knows it. I cant just end it.

Last night when we were sleeping together, I woke up and looked out the window, it was snowing, he was holding me, he was keeping me warm, and everything in the world seemed perfect.

i’m sick of this

i am so sick to my stomach. i hate that i still have feelings for you, but can you blame me? when you tell me you love me and call me baby? i want to stop liking you but i find that an impossible task. i try so damn hard to be everything you want a girl to be. i try my best to make you happy but i dont think ill ever be good enough. i makes me ill that you would settle for a highschool girl. i mean come on, really? i hope that one day you will finally realize how great you had it with me and kick yourself for being such a stupid asshole.

i dont know what to do with myself.

fuckhead

I couldn’t believe it. I was actually liking and trusting a guy for once in my life. Things were going great untill this weekend. I figured something had happened because you didn’t check up on me by texting or calling me. Turns out I was right.  I was gone for three days and you couldn’t keep your fucking hands to yourself. You made out with however many girls, I don’t even want to know. It makes me sick to my stomach even thinking about it. In fact, I just ran 2 miles in 7 minutes. You do the math. I thought about everything in that short amount of time and it all seems so clear to me now. So thanks. Thank you for helping me get my head straight. Now I can achieve whatever the fuck I want without you or any other guy by my side. I will never like a guy again and that is why I will be successful.

Fuckhead!

If you’re going to be a bitch about it at least do it to my face next time.

alright

people keep telling me i’m making a huge mistake because i’m taking him back, which i’m not (well, not yet) i know i know that this might come back to bite me in the ass but i dont care, because in this moment i’m happy and i’m not gonna regret doing what i’m doing now. he makes me happy and thats all that matters.

Last night

I was reaching out for a sign from above to get me through. When I peered up onto my nightstand I saw what looked to be the bible. I was relieved to know that He was with me but when I grabbed the book I found that it was actually TWILIGHT. Shit.

You know who you are.

It makes me sick to my stomach that your fucking that whore. If she only knew the things you said about her I dont think she would even talk to you. do you want to get a STD? I feel REALLY bad for you that you have to sink that low and go with someone like her, whose fucked everything thats ever moved. You had a girlfriend who loved you and who would break her back to make you happy. How digusting you must feel inside to do such a thing, and to top it all of, what you’re doing is making ME look bad. Thanks alot for nothing.